Me: Sooooo, what did yu wanna say to me? *went back on webcam cause he kept saying NOOOOO ~~ after I hanged up twice cause I needed to try to sleep*
Him: I just wanted to see you one last time before you sleep =D
Me: ...such a waste of time XD
Him: That was anti climatic ._.
Me: well, if I was a regular girl, I would say "awwww that's so sweet" but since I'm not, I won't say it.
Him: Maybe that's why I fell for you
Me: you don't want to fall for me. you don't want know what's in store for you.
[what I meant here was my insecurities, my fears, my vulnerabilities, my fear of falling & having someone just toss away my feelings. I can't let it happen again so quickly . . .]
Him: I wanna know =D
lol you don't want to. I'm picky and after what my exs did, I'm even more skeptical of feelings guys have for me
[I don't know why I was being so honest with him but I was. I wanted to show him I'm quite the insecure person here and I doubt anyone wants to deal with that . . . I should know. I was insecure with JYee and he didn't want to deal with me. Maybe that was the underlying reason he wanted to break up with me. I don't know LOL and honestly, at this point, I don't care . . .]
"haha, I don't blame you for that but it takes time and sometimes the right person to fix that xP 'cause it's a natural reaction"
Haha, one day, I hope to find my prince charming then ~ ! (: hope you find your princess too !
"Maybe I found my princess but she doesn't want that guy to be her prince charming"
I hope he was NOT talking about me. It's not that I don't want to be someone's 'princess' and he does treat me differently but . . . I don't think I'm ready to hand over my heart to anyone so soon, so sudden. What if he tosses it away just like everyone else . . . ? & takes me for granted? & takes my patience for granted? Doesn't like my hopelessly romantic side? Yells at me for my insecurities? Point fingers at me again for not telling HIM first about OUR problems?
What if in the end, I have communication problems with him just like I had with JYee and he tells me "I don't think we can fix that problem" . . . ?
